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Today I had to make that hard decision every horse person does not want to make. I had to euthanize my good mare Gracie Lou today. Her age has taken a toll on her, her weight has dropped over the summer and into fall despite my best actions and the vets, and I came to the decision that I did not want to see her go thru a rough winter.
She was my heart and held a piece of my soul. I've known her all her life, was there the day she was born, my dad named her after me. She was truly a one person horse, and I'm so thankful I was her person. She never could get along with anyone else, and she didn't try to. It was me or nobody.
Thru all this I've been trying to not stress out, which is pretty much impossible. I'm 30 weeks pregnant with my second kiddo, a baby girl, Riata Cheyenne, and have been diagnosed with preeclampsia, among other issues this pregnancy,, I'm on bed rest, and the struggle is so hard trying to keep my blood pressure down on a good day. Today is just too much to handle. A chunk of my world is gone, how can I stay calm and not get worked up? Sorry for the venting but I feel like I'm about to explode.