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*This post is extremely personal, but its something that I feel comfortable with sharing. If it isn't allowed let me know, and ill delete what im about to write*

Hello all of you lovelies that are about to read my long post- my names Maria and i have major social anxiety.

So far i've lived with it throughout my life of seventeen years. I let it rule me; i would decline to hang out with friends and i would often look for any oppurtunity to sit in the back of the classroom. I dreaded going to school, i would beg my mother to let me stay home. She often caved. Because i was never at school, my grades quickly declined to C's on a good day, and D's or F's on an average day. Fast forward to last year: I left my regular high school, joined an alternative school, and started to get work done. I didnt go every day, but my attendance was definitely better. My grades shot up to straight A's and B's, and i earned almost nine credits (in a school year students are expected to earn six). I kinda started to come out of my shell, and i even made a friend that has helped me through a lot of my anxiety.
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I've decided on what I want to do with my life. I want to become an elementary teacher (horse trainer on the side ;) ). I want to potentially help other children that need a constant positive role model: i want to be better. Because of this, I started talking with my principal and we got in contact with other elementary school principals in the area, and long story short..

I got TWO internships at different schools. my life is finally looking like it will amount to something guys, and its terrifyingly awesome.